July 14-21 I'm heading out on a trip of my complete making. Going to San Diego to see the Bride To Be and help plan and make some stuff for the wedding. Then from there, i'm heading up to Anaheim, Monterey, Cambria, Yosemite, etc... I'm stressing about this trip because itll be my very first solo roadtrip of this magnitude. But i'm also very excited. I'm taking my dogs with me, so i'll definitely have companionship.
But i need help. I really want to spend this time writing, drawing, taking pictures... Anything to try to recapture my muse and kick start my creative juices again. I've been living in a stagnant situation for my life and i need to stop it. I'm really hoping to turn this trip into a Self Discovery trip and figure out what it is that I want to do in my life and so on.
I'm not in a happy situation in my mindset, my heart or my life in general. & I need to take this time to figure out my life plan, or at least a general guideline to get me back on track. I'm almost 30 and i have no life savings, no degree (this matters to me because i know what i want to do, not because its demanded by 1/2 of society), no real travel experience under my belt, i haven't left the states since I was a baby, I have had no relationships and i've allowed myself to be suffocated by false and posionous "friendships".
I want to spend this time working on me emotionally, physically, mentally, creatively, etc. In order to get past this point that i've allowed myself to get stuck in, I need to do something to resurrect my Muse and the goodness that my creativity and balance brought to me.
But i'm honestly unsure of how to do this and i think i'm going to get overwhelmed with 8 days on a trip, BY MYSELF... Alone with my thoughts... 0.o I can already feel the pressure in my chest at just the idea of it.
So, where do I go to get ideas on how to get past this hump? To get ideas to spark inspiration. I'm not sure on where to look. But i know i want to write, draw, paint, journal, photograph, etc.... Should I just see what pops into my head, or should I give topics for each day and just go from there?
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