01 February 2012

NOTHING Left To Lose...


I'm at that point in my life where I don't know what the hell I'm doing or what I want to do.  I have ideals of grandeur, things I wish to accomplish and experience.  I’ve always let fear hold me back, tie me up and distract me.  But not now.

I have NOTHING to lose.

Not one damned thing.

I’ve been living in a shallow grave for most of my life.  Just floating around and existing.  Letting things happen and not acting upon situations and chances.  But now that I have no one holding me back, I can only head up and rise against all the wrongs done to me by others and myself.

I’ve let people think I’m replaceable, & now its time for me to show them I’m not.

I’ve been overlooked, ignored, replaced, taken advantage of, forgotten, lied to, hurt, destroyed, broken down, smothered, bittered, emotionally savaged, kicked, etc. 

And I CANNOT & WILL NOT let it continue on.  It is time that I become my own role model and make MYSELF proud.

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