I've let people think that they can replace me, and thats partially my fault. i've vowed to myself never again, and yet its happened again with teh same damn person. I've decided that i cant keep being the petty, angry person i've been because of this person, and yet everytime i read something about how they've had fun with these replacements or how they are now the 'married couple' (used to be an inside joke about us), i hurt even more inside.
I can count how many true friends i have on one hand, with one finger. Its sad, but i really don't have anyone in my life at all, except for my parents. And i can't always go runing to them for everything or depend on them for everything and to have someone to do something with.
ugh! i honestly don't know what i'm trying to say on this damn post, except that i needed someplace to vent and don't have anywhere else but here. i have a pounding headache and just cant focus. grrr
but other then that, i had a good day. I went to see WICKED with my mom, aunt and a friend and it was absolutely amazing. Knew it was going to be, but very very rarely has a production moved me to tears. Just was in absolute awe...
guess i'll go crash now for the night. i have a ton of cleaning tomorrow to do before my work week and i have alot to plan for and need to figure out how i'm going to post my pictures for the creative challenge. I also need to figure out finances and start learning new ways to be creative. need my outlet for all the betrayal and frustration i've been feeling lately!
Pleasant dreams!!
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