Xhausted, stressed & unsure. :(

drowning...

I feel so lost, so hopeless and like I’m drowning.  I’ve done shitty this school semester. But a lot of things came up that really screwed me up. Big time.  A trip I didn’t even really want to take.  Coming back and working 10 hour days almost because yolz wasn’t here and my “help” were no help at all.  Its just shit, shit, shit.  So I’m struggling to try and catch up in what few classes I’m still remaining in.  its just not right. I wish I didn’t have to take classes anymore. I wish I could just work full time.  That is, sadly, what I’d really like right now. Just to work.  Ah, how thatd be nice… and how nice itd be  to be able to get ahead on my damn bills.  All my money disappears somewhere and I just don’t know where. So many things I need/want.  And yet I cant get any of it. Driving me nucking futs!!  *sigh* it feels neverending.

I wonder how I will be up at NAU, ya know? Wonder if I’ll be able to hack it.  I hope I can. I really want to be up there. But I just don’t know anymore…