A sad, sad truth I've come to realize

I'm something thats taken advantage of. Like Oxygen. You forget its there, forget that you need it till you no longer have it. No one calls, no one writes, no one does anything towards me and i'm refusing to do it. I've done it. All i get are these lame excuses of "i'm busy". sorry, what do you think i am? I'm going to school, i'm working... is that not being busy?

whatever, i'm just sick of it.... its getting really ridiculous... i'm tired of only being sent text messages to say "hey, i got something new...." WTF... write me to write me... i'm going to be doing a complete life changing situation since i'm going up to NAU. probably going to write out a lot of people... get shopping under control (damn my mangas, why cant the series i have just freakin end already.... LOL)

*sigh*

leaves change, as do hearts

Times are interesting as the leaves change. Do peoples hearts change that easily, or is that caused by fear. Fear to love and be loved. Fear of living alone, loving alone, ending up alone. To tie oneself down with these fears is to seal the fate that you feared. Love freely, live freely, do not fear what should come natural... But dont go rushing blindly into something you are not prepared for. With every action, there is consequences.

Too many people are out there trying to live their lives as if nothing can touch them. And when others get involved, whether on purpose or not, those who created the problem do not care. All they see is a new mouth to feed, another "opinion" to listen too.. its the same ole' same ol' and everyones too afraid to admit it.

THAT is whats wrong with the world today. No one is willing to admit they were wrong or they cant handle it.

The days are getting shorter

thank god. I cant tell you how happy i am that winter is slowly starting to get here. Its been a long time coming. As much as i love Arizona, i would love to be someplace where 9 times out of 10 you need a jacket, or a coat or something. I wish it would rain more often. I think that i'm finally starting to get a view of the big picture. But sadly, i say this when i'm procrastinating on homework. haha.. how ironic, eh?

What are my goals and aspirations you ask? easy, to travel and study other cultures. To travel to different worlds on our earth, and to educate those who may never go. I want to give hope for the future, educate them, even create something with them, for them. I have so many dreams and aspirations, and yet i feel like i don't have enough time. Not enough time in this one lifetime. I'm a jill of all trades. Too many goals for one little body that i dont know how to take care of.

But you see, life is funny like that, isn't it? it likes to tease you and taunt you, wave the dreams three inches from your nose, waiting for you to grasp at it before they yank it back. Fate is such a cruel temptress....