When one dream flickers, light another one to guide your way...

One dream has partially died, but instead of fully giving up on that dream and extinguishing it, i will continue to protect it and keep its flame going but will simultaneously light a new one so my life, my path, will be lit and keep me with hope.

Because i am not a quitter but i cannot live through life without a dream.  I need something to focus on, something to strive for and keep me happy.  I need something thats short term and attainable so i can feel accomplished and create yet another dream for myself.  I need something to keep me going and to keep me happy...

So what are some of my dreams? i guess it should be considered a bucket list of sorts.  One long term, one short term... but lists nonetheless to mark things off so i can look at it and be happy and have the memories. :)

(coming soon, my starter lists... =P )

Same story, Different setting

as always, i take on more then i can handle.  But its like i subconciously like setting myself up for failure. So i'm trying to accomplish one thing at a time, which is hard. really really hard. *sigh*  have so much i need to make up for and so much i need to get done, that it just seems so overwhelming. instead of just thinking a few steps ahead, i'm having to plan for years in advance it seems. just so i can keep from struggling too much in the present and make sure i don't fail so miserably...

and yet, no matter how much i plan, i just seem to keep failing.  I know i can do this, and i know i WILL do this. just sometimes, the emotions at the moment just seem overwhelming...